Crossroads
I find myself in an odd position
Looking around I am finding all these "X's"
on the treausure map
I have been seeking some sort of treasure but
I don't thtink I yet know
what that treasure is or means.
Like a list I have been x-ing out parts and parcels of self
and things I really wanted for myself
I have.
I wanted to love what I do
I wanted to be the Best in what I choose
not in comparison to anyone else-but to be the best me
I wanted to learn and to know
I wanted to find myself and take the hard ganders in teh mirror
I will, and I have.
It's one of those lifelong journeys I am confident I can navigate
I wanted a dog that I could love with the love I had for Soxy...
I have that.
I wanted a program that taught humanity and differences
I found that aas well
Finally, I wanted a job that I can do
that isn't treading water.
I am no Mesovelia mulsanti
I cannot stand to eb still
I also cannot stand to run in circles or waste time
I wanted to learn about my intuition
my clairvoyance
and, dammit, I have.
Seems like it may be time for new goals.
I have reached all the ones I really wanted for myself
The ones that absolutely had to happen for me.
I am not a counselor yet-but it will come.
The marriage thing-having a family
I think it will come as it should and it isn't a goal I can have
Only a hope for it.
I can't make it happen
Now what :P