Free flow-seems to have word theme

Just so you know
in case you come to call
you can't have
just this or that
it's all or nothing a'all

Just so we're clear
you can't tell me to leave
if you truly want me near
To clarify, that's confusing
and your words numb my skull

So just so you know
I kissed you to sleep last night
and wondered when all that ice would strike you dead
the next time I open my mouth?
or my heart
or my... well just when will this thing freeze over?

I want you to hear me
I wish it was words that I speak with
I want you to know me
So I'll place my face against yours
in the pale light
hoping the inferno catches fire in your mind
as it has all but demolished my own



I am sewing us a small sachet
Sachet across the room to you
I'll press it against your heart
The brand will live there til a fail deed...
Instead
I've sewn my lips shut
after making the holes I watched the black thread sealed it.
Sighed with relief at all the words I shoulda, coulda
...can't...
say
I place the glue to my lips and feel it bind me
No more words...........
No more eating.............
or talking.........
meaningless explanations.
I lay down
hope it's all bonded by morning
Eventually they'll call, as they always do
I will go as I always will

but this time it'll take days to get me apart

days to 'talk' it through
When will they see I sew my flesh together to avoid this ritual
When will they see that I have nothing more to say
Not even goodbye